A heartbeat. A signal. A promise.
People will tell you that the world is too much.
Sometimes it is.
But the world is also exactly the size of the square you draw with chalk when the rain is on its way, and sometimes the bravest thing you can do is stand inside that square with someone who trusts you to stay.
I am sixty-eight.
My knees complain.
My shoulder aches when the weather changes.
I keep a list on the fridge now that would make a platoon sergeant proud: snacks, spare socks, emergency lollipops for when courage needs sugar, the number for Ellen even though I have it memorized, the number for a neighbor who knows how to fix a garbage disposal and also how to keep a child laughing while you are both elbow-deep in a sink.
Milo sleeps at the foot of June’s bed now.
She moved there on her own one night, declaring that corners are for foxes and beds are for children.
Sometimes she slips down onto the rug when thunder walks the city.
I do not move her back. I put the jacket on the floor beside her like a shoreline, and in the morning we fold it and tell it thank you for holding the night.
We drive past the overpass sometimes.
We do not make it a shrine.
We roll by slow.
I point.
June points. We nod, like citizens recognizing a public building that did its job.
People ask me if I think about the what-ifs. If I wonder who did not stop. If I wonder where she walked from. If I wonder why the code did not lead us to someone who said, “We made a terrible mistake. We forgot how to be the grown-ups.”
Of course I wonder.
But the most important what-if in my life now is this: what if I had gone on? What if I had said, “Someone else is closer”? What if I had told myself a story about storms and old bones and let myself believe it?
We turned on the hazard lights.
We made a wall.
We said, “Here we are,” and we stayed. Most days, that is the whole job. Show up. Stay.
When June lines her blocks, she builds a road.
Two columns of color, one lane for us and one for people who are in a hurry. At the end of the road, she balances a yellow block on top of a blue one and announces, “Bridge.” Sometimes she tries to cross with too many things in her hands. She drops one. She looks at me.
“Again?” she asks.
“Again,” I say.
We go again. And again. And again. Until the shape holds.
If you’re reading this and you drive at midnight and the rain is a thousand small hands on your windshield and something flashes at the edge of your vision and your foot knows before your brain does—trust the foot.
Trust the click-click heartbeat.
Trust that the small square of world you can make with your lights and your two hands and your good dog is sometimes exactly the size of a miracle.
I didn’t see the child first.
Milo did.
But when the lights came, and the people, and the forms in triplicate, and the long slow unspooling of a life that needed steady hands, I did the thing I wish someone had taught me when I was nineteen and bulletproof and sure: I stopped. I stayed. I learned how to say safe and mean it.
Some nights, the old dreams still visit.
Sand.
Shouting.
Sirens that were not sirens. When they do, I sit up and listen for the sound that puts the world back on its rails.
Click.
Click.
Click.
“Again,” June whispers from her room.
“Again,” I whisper back.
We count four in.
Four out.
We build the bridge.
We cross holding only what we need. We leave the rest for morning.
And when the morning comes, we tug on the Sunshine Coat and let the dog tow us down the sidewalk, and if the sky opens, we draw a new square with new chalk and stand in it together, two people and one very good dog, alive and facing forward, making the small, bright world we can.
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